No, no, no, and no.

At this moment, my innards are throbbing with feelings of consummate inadequacy. I feel like a completely trivial creature in the story of existence. I feel like I've never come in contact with another human being in my entire life.

I feel like . . . hm . . . how can I put this? I feel like eyes without a body . . . I feel really, really sad.

At the same time, another part of me is watching myself, and noting how deeply hurt I am by something that isn't even an injustice, something that's just the consequence of regular life, and it seems to me that I'm a very, very weak person. And it's not only that I don't see myself as having a significant role in my life, but I don't think I'm even "good enough" to have significance in my life.

I guess that probably doesn't make sense.

I hope I feel better when I wake up . . .