But just for fun, I shall say some other things too.
Why are there so many white jellybeans? I love white jellybeans. Today I might go see a movie with my friend Trisa. Although my instincts are saying that it's not going to happen. So later I'll check my notes here and see if reality ended up matching, just to see how my psychic instincts are workin'.
Growing increasingly worried about Cryptess and Richard. I hope I'm just being silly.
I've been thinking more on how I'd never know about it if they died, and that led me to a feeling of general meaninglessness as regards human life and the impact individuals have on one another. I've tied that into my general hatred of people and I've come to the conclusion that I was meant to be a hermit.
I feel the relationships I have with inanimate objects and works of art are a thousand times more fulfilling than most of my relationships with other human beings. If not all of them. One of the primary distinctions between humans and Everything Else, as I see it, is that humans tend to carry on about completely meaningless shit. Humans cling to the fucking mundane like a life raft in the oh-so-wicked sea of Interesting Things.
Like someone will put on a big fucking scream-n-spit show about how the picture on their television isn't ABSOLUTELY perfect, and at the same time not challenge themselves to the slightest degree to ponder and learn from a wonderful movie they might watch on said television. Or at the most, these people will only dig lessons that, as they perceive it, already fit in neatly with their preconceived notions.
And it gets so fucking--grr--oppressive listening to people grind on and ON about how the most important thing--the only thing--in life is just surviving, that emotional growth is just like shitting--at times necessary for survival but ought never, ever to be discussed by descent people, and must be avoided at all costs if possible.
I'm hating people more and more I swear. I wonder how long before I start making a real fool of myself . . . I mean, these people just don't seem to merit my patience or self-censorship at all anymore.